Dear Brantley,
While I am so glad to know you are healthy and doing well (the constant kicks, jabs and wiggles certainly let me know that), your mommy is getting tired. And I promise you that this world will give you much, much more room than there is left in my belly. There's also LOTS of people who are ready to meet you, grandmas (3!), grandpas (3!), aunts, uncles, cousins, friends and most importantly your GREAT grandma who is hanging around just to meet you for the first time. All this to say, we'd all love it if you'd start making your way toward the outside world soon because the anxiety is getting to be quite a bit much.
We love you,
Mommy and Daddy
38 weeks
So tomorrow I will be 38 weeks.
I haven't had a cervical check yet, but I have lost my plug (for those that know what that is great, for those that don't you probably don't want to know). The good thing is that means that supposedly there is some progress going on down there. I haven't had any Braxton Hicks contractions that I can really tell, and no real contractions at all. Plus everytime I think he's dropped, the bobs back to right under my ribs (and it's always his butt). However, there is immense pressure in my lower abdomen, back pain that sometimes makes me want to do nothing but lie down, and a generally crampiness that varies from dull to really strong. All this to say as much as I am ready for him, it seems to me like he's going to stay put for a little while longer.
This last week has been really tough for me. I think it is a combination of now being full term and knowing that if he wanted to come now all would be ok and everyone else I know having babies! I am so excited for them, but it makes me so anxious for mine. I'm really ready to start our life with our son. I want to hold him and love on him so bad I can taste it. That coupled with the back/hip pain, cramps, insomnia and anxiety is making me incredibly impatient. To combat the impatience I thought I would write a list of the things I would actually MISS about being pregnant... then maybe I can focus on enjoying my last few weeks of those things.
1) Feeling him move all.the.time. I love the flips, wiggles, kicks, and flutters I still feel on a daily basis. It's reassurance that he is ok. I'll miss feeling him all the time.
2) Being able to eat what I want, when I want it, with no one looking at me like I'm crazy. Three desserts today... no problem because I'm pregnant. Three desserts today when not pregnant = people thinking your nuts.
3) People always giving your their seat because you are pregnant and no one wants to be the one that makes the pregnant chick stand.
4) Not having to tote the laundry up and down the stairs.
5) The whoosh whoosh sound of his heartbeat that I get to hear at every appointment.
6) My bump (even as little as it is) and knowing I'm GROWING something inside of it.
7) The anticipation of something really exciting about to happen.
8) The excuse for being lazy/not feeling like cleaning/etc.
9) Watching my belly move from side to side to side.
10) Alone time and alone time with my husband.
So.. I'm going to TRY and focus on these things in the coming week. As the saying goes...
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change..."
I haven't had a cervical check yet, but I have lost my plug (for those that know what that is great, for those that don't you probably don't want to know). The good thing is that means that supposedly there is some progress going on down there. I haven't had any Braxton Hicks contractions that I can really tell, and no real contractions at all. Plus everytime I think he's dropped, the bobs back to right under my ribs (and it's always his butt). However, there is immense pressure in my lower abdomen, back pain that sometimes makes me want to do nothing but lie down, and a generally crampiness that varies from dull to really strong. All this to say as much as I am ready for him, it seems to me like he's going to stay put for a little while longer.
This last week has been really tough for me. I think it is a combination of now being full term and knowing that if he wanted to come now all would be ok and everyone else I know having babies! I am so excited for them, but it makes me so anxious for mine. I'm really ready to start our life with our son. I want to hold him and love on him so bad I can taste it. That coupled with the back/hip pain, cramps, insomnia and anxiety is making me incredibly impatient. To combat the impatience I thought I would write a list of the things I would actually MISS about being pregnant... then maybe I can focus on enjoying my last few weeks of those things.
1) Feeling him move all.the.time. I love the flips, wiggles, kicks, and flutters I still feel on a daily basis. It's reassurance that he is ok. I'll miss feeling him all the time.
2) Being able to eat what I want, when I want it, with no one looking at me like I'm crazy. Three desserts today... no problem because I'm pregnant. Three desserts today when not pregnant = people thinking your nuts.
3) People always giving your their seat because you are pregnant and no one wants to be the one that makes the pregnant chick stand.
4) Not having to tote the laundry up and down the stairs.
5) The whoosh whoosh sound of his heartbeat that I get to hear at every appointment.
6) My bump (even as little as it is) and knowing I'm GROWING something inside of it.
7) The anticipation of something really exciting about to happen.
8) The excuse for being lazy/not feeling like cleaning/etc.
9) Watching my belly move from side to side to side.
10) Alone time and alone time with my husband.
So.. I'm going to TRY and focus on these things in the coming week. As the saying goes...
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change..."
36 weeks!
I will be 36 weeks tomorrow. It's so hard to beleive that it's almost coming to an end - and then he'll acutally be here. And I can hold him and love on him. I am so excited and ready to meet my son.
At my 34 week visit I had a growth scan due to my low weight gain. He's right on track to weigh over 8lbs at birth. He was 5lbs 4ozs at that appointment, so he's a good growing little boy. It was so reassuring to see that everything was ok. Anyone that knows me knows I worry ALL THE TIME about everything, so I was extrememly glad that I was able to find out he was ok.
The nursery is DONE with the exception of hanging some photos and such on the wall. I am so glad to have this project finally finished. I feel like we're actually READY for him now, as opposed to stressed it wouldn't be done in time.
I've been having a hard time personally with other things lately, so it's nice that he is a bright spot when other times things don't look so bright.
4 more weeks (give or take!) and I'll be a mommy. Wow.
At my 34 week visit I had a growth scan due to my low weight gain. He's right on track to weigh over 8lbs at birth. He was 5lbs 4ozs at that appointment, so he's a good growing little boy. It was so reassuring to see that everything was ok. Anyone that knows me knows I worry ALL THE TIME about everything, so I was extrememly glad that I was able to find out he was ok.
The nursery is DONE with the exception of hanging some photos and such on the wall. I am so glad to have this project finally finished. I feel like we're actually READY for him now, as opposed to stressed it wouldn't be done in time.
I've been having a hard time personally with other things lately, so it's nice that he is a bright spot when other times things don't look so bright.
4 more weeks (give or take!) and I'll be a mommy. Wow.